The last time I posted on this site was in 2013 just after my Sweety was allowed to return home after his transplant. In 6 weeks it will be his 3rd year anniversary from his transplant which is amazing. It has taken a lot of work to get to this point, especially since it took longer for him to recover than expected (by about 2 years).
Suffice to say, a lot has changed in that time period.
I am now working full-time (between 40-44 hours a week) as a trainer and supervisor. Sweety was allowed to return to work because he no longer requires transfusions of blood. Sweety still has appointments but they are less frequent (bi-weekly in town and quarterly in Calgary). Sweety’s sister is getting married and his mother moved out of province. Sweety and I were able to visit my family on the other side of the country. And I am finally able to start relaxing.
We are also able to get back into hanging out with friends which is a nice way to relax. Actually, it’s nice to have friends in this province. (For those who don’t know I moved here very shortly before Sweety got sick which took over all of our time and energy and left me with no local support system.)
So, now that I am able to get back to being me, I want to start blogging and writing again. I’m going to be the DM for a campaign with our friends. I am very excited and have a lot of plans for the campaign which is getting me excited to start writing again. But, with everything that has been going on (including a few incidents that I’m not at liberty to talk about as they only partially include me) I have sunk back into my anxiety and depression.
Now I am climbing back out, bloody hands clutching to the rock walls of sanity as I struggle to hold on. But I am slowly getting out and it feels empowering. So, while I still have anxiety attacks, I’m considering myself back with a vengeance… or at least back.